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[wayleadsontoway]

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[wayleadsontoway]

[And that touch helps, it really does. It gives him a sense of grounding, someone solid and real who he knows he can depend on. Someone who would really not want him going off the deep end. He takes in a rattling, shuddery breath, and exhales. He repeats it a couple of times until he feels a little more with it. ]

Shit. That was-

[And that's the thing. The thing that makes him feel terrible is that the act itself DIDN'T feel terrible. It felt natural, it it was what he was supposed to do. That this is how he eats now. Just like chomping on a cheeseburger.]

This is so fucked up.

[catphishing]

Yep.

[What else can he say? He can't disagree. It is fucked up. He takes a deep, shuddering breath, squeezing his shoulder. He needs to stay calm. For Chris.]

You need somewhere to stay tonight? You don't... you don't have to be alone for this.

[wayleadsontoway]

[He should go home, he knows Ashley and Mike would worry if he wasn't there. But the thought of facing them after this, of acting like everything was normal when it absolutely wasn't... Even Chris has a limit to being able to pretend he's fine. ]

I- you sure? I just...don't think it'd be a good idea to see my friends tonight. They'd just worry if they saw me like this.

[catphishing]

Yeah. I don't sleep at night so you... you don't have to take the couch or anything. And I have coffee. If you don't mind it black.

[wayleadsontoway]

I can live with it black.

...Thanks, man, I really appreciate it.

[You are the best father figure ever.]